龙昌的奋斗日记，week4 (reflection)

Kelvin has already been enlisted for a month :) Today marks the start of his fifth week in the navy.

In the past week, I was very emotional and mean towards Kelvin. I dont know why but the feeling of loneliness is overwhelming and its like a super-duper-hyper crazily negative bomb that bombs my brain off and make me so overwhelmed with negative emotions.

In our phone calls daily for week4, it has to contain some bad news. In which includes Kelvin saying because he failed his pull ups and standing broad jump, he'll have lesser time to talk to me at night because he has to go for extra trainings. Secondly, he failed his Cat1 swimming test because his legs are tired and he couldnt overcome his fear of swimming in the NCR uniform and he told me all the people who took the Cat1 test passed but him. I was kind of disappointed and ignored the fact that he tried his best but couldn't do it. I was mean enough to put him down with my words and make him upset. Thirdly, some of his friends got to book out on friday night because they passed their IPPT and CAT1 swimming test, which further adds to my disappointed and i blamed him for not passing the tests. Lastly, he told me that he would be confined for BMT for my 21st birthday which falls on a sunday.

All these bad news generally put me through a gloomy and emo week4.

However, when I went to church on sunday with Kelvin and during praise and worship, I felt God's love and then I started to think, why havent I depended on God when I felt like poo on week4? Why was I so ignorant when God was just standing at the door of my heart, why did I not let him in?

He is always there when I need him. Just a prayer away.

I left church with a light heart and I felt freedom almost immediately during our intercessory prayer. He rejuvenated me and empowered me.

I started my week joyfully and I will never let myself go through another emotional week4 because I know God is there for me and nothing is too difficult with him :)

And now I keep reminding myself that I have to
1: Support
2: Encourage
3: Motivate
recruit lee :)

He needs my support, encouragement and motivation to pull through. God will strengthen him, strengthen our relationship :D

WEEK5, GO GO GO!